friends

i haven't blogged in a long time - since last year, but i have been doing a lot of blog reading.

i have found a few posts on different blogs really intriguing and challenging, to the point where i am sometimes left in a bit of a daze for days. and i honestly don't know what i have to say that could add to the questions that people like todger and contrary mary are asking.

i have so far resisted the facebook thing (not that it has taken much resistance if i'm honest), but the notion of how people define who their friends are is funny.

i have had an odd day today with news from two friends. one good and one not. it has kind of affected my whole day, as i try to get my head round these things and try to get back to focusing on myself.

as i get older, friendship change and mean different things.

i am not good with meeting new people and making small talk, and so find it difficult to make new friends, but when i do it is something i value more than when i was a hormonal teenager running around in packs.

but my closest friends are those who have been through harder times with me. those who were there when it really meant something. these people have changed my life and i will always love them for that. i try to be like them when others are going through tough times and try to show some love and understanding.

i don't really know what i am saying with this post, but i wanted in some way to pay public tribute to those who i am close to, without actually naming them.

as i was typing this, brian houston started singing "what a friend we have in jesus" and this added to my oddly emotional day. then party shuffle took me to some kids nursery rhyme, which kind of wrecked the moment.

i also thought i would give the blog a 2008 face lift, as i like making things look new.

anyway, this year i am going to be an amazing friend